Sunrise Sky

I woke up this morning, and i gazed at the sky as the Sun rised along with the sky.
It was so amazing, I could not believe my eyes.
It was like gazing at the beautiful Moon, but only in the morning.
13 years of my life was wasted because I did not notice the beauty of the Sun rise combined with the sky.

Combination of the beautiful colours that went through the sky and clouds.
Yellowish orange colours, with the sunlight just shining out with glory.
The sight is amazing and indescribeble.
Its like the first sight you get when your a baby.
Getting to see your family who loves you and care for you.
It is truely a mesmerising sight.

I see this combination and I think to myself, what can be more beautiful than this apart from the beautiful moonlight.
I wish that I can see the combination of the Moon and the Sunrise with the sky.
I could stay awake all day just to watch it move pass.
I wish you could be here with me.

Me, you and the amazing view.
But the most amazing view is still you.
You've got me falling like a domino, and I just cant stop falling.
Your the only thing that can sweep me off my feet and the only thing that makes my heart beat.
So before I fall, I want you to be here. To be with me, Only then will things be clear.

The light and darkness pass through everyday.
Everyone has their light, you are mine.
Some people have darkness, life is mine.
The shadow is my companion that follows me where ever I go.
So dont let go, and keep it all on the flow.

What they say is true, Two is better than one.
But it also depends on who the two individuals are.
If they are like the Sun and the Moon, its is certainly not better than one.
But the Sunrise and the Moon, that is truely better than one.
But without the sky and the clouds, what is the use of just the Sun?

The sight would be just a big round sphere of flames.
With the sky, it makes such a great view, but with the clouds it makes a better view.
But the Moon, is just the best when shines out at night with the bright beautiful Moonlight.
So come with me in my dream where we will be in the world of our own.
I will be able to enjoy the beautiful sight of the Moon and the Sunrise.

But it wont be as beautiful as the view I get from looking at you.
And I will admire this view until I get to really see you.
The sky is blue, but with the Sun who knows what beauty it makes.
Now my mind is stuck on you and it wont go away.
But I never said I didnt want it to stay.

Dedicated to Sherlyn Ho once again.

Moonlight

For years I've been staring at the moon.
Watching the beauty of the moon just right before my eyes.
I feel like I could just fall asleep under the beautiful moonlight.

Just glancing at it reminds me of "You".
Your so far away, but I can wait.
You look so beautiful every night, when your so bright its hard for me to look away.
Distance doesn't matter but you feel so far away.

Every time we cant talk my heart turns grey.
And I just wanna go to you to see your face.
Seeing the real you is like seeing the Moon even closer.

But I just cant take it, another day without you here with me.
Its like a sharp blade that just cuts like through me.
But still I'll wait, I'll wait for you forever.
When I hear your voice, my heart starts beating.
But when your gone it wont stop bleeding.
I just wanna see you under this moonlight.

Its like every time I look at the moon, I see your face.
The thing I miss is, hearing your voice.
And I wish it would last for an eternity.
It feels like its forever, that's just the price I gotta pay.
But when I find you and feel your touch to make me feel better.
But till that day, there's nothing else I can do.

Nothing ever happens in this town, its the same old thing when I go out.
Its just a new place to hang with the same crowd.
But I looked up at night and saw the moonlight.
It feels like I'm here with you, and I'm admiring the view.
I just hope that you never ever cut me loose, if you do I'll not know what to do.

Now I'm just falling into something and I cant stop it.
I'm knocking over everything but no one has caught me.
From start to finish I promised I'll beat this.
But I just want to let you know, I'll never let you go.

I always said true love never happens.
But your faith and love cause this chained reaction.
I've never thought you'd be my distraction.
I admit you remind of the beautiful moonlight.

Your the only thing I ever wanted but never had.
Your like the Moon that I have to myself and I never want to let loose.
In my mind I hold you there but its hard to keep the signs that proves your no where near.
I say that I must stay strong.

But I cant find the need to take a breath, If you are gone then I've got nothing left.
My life, shouldn't I'd rather just face my death.
Then to go on without you.
I cry for you cause I just cant find the strength to stop.
I've tried but only to my knees and I've dropped.
I wish my heart could just shut off, Cause I cant go on alone without you.

You are what I see when ever I look at the Moon.
I dont think of anything else apart from you when I glance at the Moon.
As I say my prayers in bed, I wonder if they reach you.
Am I just calling out in vain? For everything that has been said.
I wonder how could this be fair, seeing you is the only thing I care.
If a million stars gathered around the Moon and gives out an amazingly beautiful moonlight.
The only thing I'll be able to see is you.

Maybe somehow I will meet you in my next life.
Maybe then I'll be your moonlight, but until then I will stay here with you.
Hopefully I'll wake up with you beside me and not find out its a dream.
Because if it was a dream, I want it to last forever.
I'm also sorry if I've put you through any pain or suffering, and you'll know that I regret it.
This is our love and sad story, I hope it ends out okay.
I just hope I can see you and the moonlight together at the end of the day.

I wrote this in dedication to Sherlyn Ho.
:]

How many years has it been?

Now. Lets recall how many years has it been since i blogged...
Hmmm...
How many fingers do we have to count with again?

Nevermind, I know i've let this blog died for like *coughs* forever.
But now, im going to bring it back...TO LIFE!

1...2... CLEAR *bzzzttt*
CLEAR!! *bzzztttt*
GOD DAMMIT! *coughs* sorry God.
CLEAR! *bzzztttt*
-Beeping-

IT LIVES!
WOOHOO~~

Alright, enough with the bull crap.
I guess i've been seriously busy lately.
Lets see the 2010 resolutions shall we?

Get Straight A's for an exam [No]
Remain Awesome in everything even Sudden Attack [YES]
Have really awesome and cool best friends [YES]
Up hold the reputation of AWESOME [IN PROGRESS]

Boy.. Life is getting harder everyday.
The person i like doesnt even notice me.
And I guess im in love with a person who is in love with me.

Love is sooooo hard to understand.
People look at me and they say, "hows your girl friend?"
I cant really even answer that because I dont know how she's doing nowadays.
What kind of person does that make me?
I want to be with her, I like to be with her, I cant live not being with her.
Every moment and conversation with her is like me getting a chance to talk to God.

-Looks up- God, its me Jae. What up?

Now, moving on to a different subject.
Everybody must definetly be saying.
"ahhh that blog is long gone and dead"
WELL YOUR DEAD WRONG.
I said im gonna continue blogging and to the Heavens I WILL.

The days past like the wind,
We all have something to believe in,
And we all just whisper in the wind,
All faith and hope can be found within.

Yeah, that was a poem i wrote out of 20 poems.
You have got to hate English classes.
-Shivers while in disgust-

Apart from all the lame and stupid things that happened.
Lets see what happened to me in the past time.


1. Got my Ipod stolen.
2. Make myself regret talking to the girl I like everytime.l
3. Won 127 bucks for gambling on Chinese New Year.
4. Kicked Major butt in sudden attack.
5. Joined Squad Vongola in Sudden Attack.
6. Made neutral friends be better friends.

Well thats all.

And to finish this, heres another poem.

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I will end this blog,
By puking on you.

Peace out hombres :]

Uhhh...

Now, how long has this blog been dead? XD
im really really really sorry for not blogging for a long time!
i know, keeping you guys to read this blog is like donkey vagina.
Not that i know how it is O_O.

im just really sorry because i haven't been that good lately.
There's been alot of downs and less ups.
and im busy writting songs and continuing my Novel and a new one.

Now lets see.
What am i gonna blog about.
-Thinks-
Hmmm...
I am completely lost.
LOL.

You know what?
im just gonna skip this blog for now XD
i've still got alot going on here.
im busy doing the Novel while Blogging anyway.

And a special shout out to the cast of my new novel.

My self.
Kelly.
Calvin.
Eu jin.

the new novel is basicly based on two people.
Jae Redfield and Kelly Mason.

For those who actually know me.
im gonna let you guys read it ! XD

Well thats all for now.
I'll try to blog more
BYES!

Lets See!

Well, first of all... Shit.
Now i know i haven't blogged for like, Years!

im so sorry, but due to my effing exam i couldn't touch my computer -__-
you know me..
Study
Study
Study...
(Bullshit)

Anyways,im gonna skip a couple of events that happened to me before the exam.
and im gonna blog about this event :].

Yesterday, after school :]
-Flashback-

Followed cousins O_O
went to a hawker restaurant
ate FOOD
went back to my house.
Begged my mum to let me sleep in eujin's house.
She agreed :]
Had a really quick shower.

Packed up my clothes and the also mighty Xbox360!

(sorry no pics)
never took any :P

went into the car and had the journey which lasted for 15 minutes -____-
went to er wynn's house first since qu jin had "stuff" to do.
played around with Er Wynn and Shun Wynn (the idiot).

Er Wynn went off to dota -__-
dota freak, balless hair wonder.

played the Xbox360 with the idiot, and pwned him :]
around 7.00 something Eu jin came over.
not exactly "CAME" if you know what i mean ;]

played there for awhile.
then we moved to.
HOTEL 626 (Game)
we were so phsyched to play, but due to lame internet connection in Er Wynn's house, it was cancelled -__-.

Went to Noodle station...
mmm :]
NOODLES ARE GEWD ! (GOOD)

After that walked back to eu jin's house and partied MORE!
it was like this.

1st thing we did.
FREDDY VS JASON THE MOVIE :]
But er wynn went to sleep after that.
so Eujin played Infamous (PS3 game)
and i played Sudden Attack (PC game)

Eu jin went to sleep around 2 o' clock.
me and shun wynn, continued our party.
i played my new game in my PSP, Final Fantasy Dissidia.
it... was... GEWD :]

Shun Wynn and I soon wanted to sleep due to boredem -__-
we slept at 4:30am. :]

woke up at 7:30 and fell asleep again -.-
woke up at 10 and started folding the blankets.
went to the game room, started the Xbox again :]
and played...

WWE Smackdown VS Raw! TEEHEE :]
Pwned everyone :]

which now brings me here, to the laptop.
my cousins are now playing Call of Duty 4, Mordern warfare.
with the 360 :]

Well, thats all for today i'll be blogging more again
Bye :]

-Jae Ian